As you may know, I have been in between writing projects. Well, okay, I’ve been in between fiction writing projects. I have still been writing my school papers and assignments and dissertation. But, for the sake of my future career as a writer, I’m going to just set those aside and say they don’t count.
I’ve been in between writing projects. And even though it has been great timing for not having any writing projects (see schoolwork that needs to be done) I have found it really difficult.
Writing is my life. I love writing. I love telling stories and reading stories and thinking of ways that my stories could be more interesting. I love being able to go back and read earlier piece I wrote and say, “Gee, that’s actually pretty good!” Once I get into a project, I really enjoy it. Writing is my passion. I love it. And I’m going to pursue it as a career.
So not having something to write has been tough. I feel like I cut a limb off and have been wandering around trying to find it again. My passion for my linguistics work has been dulled by the academic machine. I am still being productive, but I don’t enjoy it nearly as much. Which makes my days feel longer. I miss writing. A lot.
That being said, I’m also really glad I have taken the time off. Yes, technically, I’ve still been writing papers. I’ve still been involved in the writing communities on my various social media sites. I’ve still been making videos and doing blog posts. I have been reading a lot (as usual) and haven’t been away from stories. Excepting my own. But I still feel as though I did take time off. And as hard as it’s been, I’m glad I did.
Because I think that even when you’re doing something you love, you can get drained by it. I think that you can look at it and no longer love it as much as you did. Relationships between people take enough work as it is. A relationship with writing is much the same. It can be difficult and sometimes you fall out of love with it. Which is why a vacation, where I can reset and actively miss my writing, is helpful.
(No, I don’t think this is the best thing for relationships between people. A few days, maybe, but not three weeks.)
I’m going to get back into writing after I go on my vacation to Skye. I have a week of finishing up my dissertation before I do that. And in Skye, I’m going to be wandering around, taking pictures, seeing sights, acting the tourist, exploring. I’m not going to worry about my next writing project. I’m going to live in the moment. And then? Then I’m going to get back into writing. And it’s going to be lovely.
Of course, I have to survive until then. I’m getting there. One day at a time.